SIXTH anniversary of the accident!
WOW. These anniversaries just slip past me! This morning I was talking to my boss about the Oklahoma City thing, and I was thinking, hmm there is something else, I am missing something here. Well tonight we were on the phone with Jenna’s parents and it hit me: holy crap the anniversary is today!
I actually wasnt sure if it was today or five days ago. When looking back through the blog posts to try to figure it out, I saw some of the posts from the “bad” times, and it makes me so grateful we have come as far as we have.
Jenna is just amazing. We have been told repeatedly that she will make some of her greatest gains in the seven-to-ten year time frame post-accident, and she is doing so well now, and we are still a year away from that window. I feel great things coming for us all!
This weekend we are going to go camping with Cooper. I have spent way too much money on camping stuff and by God we are going to USE it! The only possible problem I can foresee for Jenna in a camping situation is getting in and out of the tent. Her left arm is still very weak/unresponsive after all this time and that will impair her ability to do such crawling-like activity. But other than that I hope to be doing a ton of camping over the summer. I remember all our camping trips when I was a kid with great fondness, and I want to do the same thing for Cooper, and Jenna.
Jenna herself is still struggling with the memory situation. The short-term just isn’t there anymore. But I have her listening to music instead of just watching TV all day, and am encouraging her to write poems and song lyrics, letters, anything to get the brain working again. Her dad had an old laptop he wasnt using and I loaded it up with all of her music she used to like, along with a bunch more. Total of about 65 gigs of music, and then about 20 gigs of Cooper pictures and videos. We also got her a small desk and set her up with a set of spare computer speakers I had. She tells me all the time how much she appreciates her little desk setup and the computer. We dont have an internet connection yet. Not sure as the rehab center is still trying to figure out what to do about it.
We still go back every two weeks. We were there a week ago and will be back this coming weekend. Camping out like I said. Eventually I’m going to get us a nice big inflatable boat we can paddle around in (God knows I can use the exercise) along with a small trailer for my car to help carry all this bulky camping gear. My car is pretty small; I was considering looking for a used volvo station wagon but for now the little trailer idea is just way more cost-effective. I also want to be able to bring our bikes, and the trailer will be good for that too. Jenna actually has a little ride-along bike trailer her parents got a long time ago. Will be a good workout pulling her around whatever campgrounds we go to! EDIT: If I recall correctly, she is able to pedal with this setup as well.
I also signed up Cooper for a summer day camp program here in town. Six weeks worth. It seems to be a great little program and is actually cheaper than the after-school care I send him to now despite it lasting all day instead of just a couple hours after school. I was considering just taking him to work with me to save money but I’d rather spend it and send him out into the summer sunshine where he belongs. That it is so inexpensive, all things considered, was a big help in making that decision.
I continue to be so grateful that things are turning out as well as they are. After having nearly lost Jenna, and fighting for so long with the hell of the counter-medicated and uncontrolled bipolar outbursts for the first three years after the accident, it just seems like right now we are turning a great corner in her ultimate recovery. I am so proud of her and feel fortunate in a sick and twisted way to be a part of it all. I wish it never had happened, but if it never had happened, we never would have known what it was like to kick its ass so thoroughly.
That reminds me of something Jenna always tells me: She is happy that the accident happened. My reaction every time she says that is to mute myself because I don’t want to drag her down by telling her how she only feels that way because she doesn’t have an idea of what she has lost. Her mental capacity is definitely diminished. She will never do in life the things she may have done before, mostly due to her memory problems. As much as I hold out hope that those issues will improve, given how utterly brutally she was hit and how completely she/her brain was injured, realistically I know she will never be again what she might have been before. But her attitude is fantastic, and her sense of humor is not diminished in the slightest. Her personality is bright and magnetic. It is a very rare person indeed who does not find her immediately charming and a source of bright light in any room she occupies. She is a different Jenna, and in some ways an improved one. It is a classic take-the-good-with-the-bad scenario. Whenever I think about all she has lost, I have to remind myself, we almost lost her, entirely. And the process of being with her in the coming back from that abyss, through that three years of living hell, to now coming around a corner into a future full of promise and growth and further recovery, has changed me in ways I can only be grateful for. I now feel the pull of what the future holds like the warm embrace of a long-lost friend welcoming me into their home after a long and harrowing journey getting to their doorstep.
People are murdered, killed in car accidents, etc., every day. Jenna was almost one of them. But she survived, wounded yes, but coming back strong, if slowly, and continues to inspire my loyalty to her every moment I think of her. I am looking forward now to the time when she will finally leave the rehab facility where she is now and re-begin her life again with her little family. Its going to be good…
EDIT: I don’t know what was going on with my wordpress install, but this post now features paragraphs! 